Will Porter (will_porter) wrote,
Will Porter

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Everything's coming up roses

Just call me Ethel.

So far, I've managed to keep up with my goal of writing in this thing everyday. I'm ignoring the fact that today is only the 2nd, but it feels good to be right on track.

I like lists. I can make them and I can cross things off as I go and feel a sense of accomplishment. I actually have another list on my desk that includes "make list on journal," so you know I'm serious about this. Anyway, here is a list of things I have to do next week:

** Call Peter and make plans to do lunch sometime. Yes, it's a trek for me to get to Hartford from here, but I want him to know that he's worth it to me. I've been a lousy friend to him lately and I'm trying to be more understanding. He loved me for a really long time and then I just dropped him when we had the chance to be together. I know that's what happened, I know it was all me and not as mutual as I'd like to think it was. I know he only went along with what I wanted because he loved me. I owe him everything for that because now I have Orli and Shy, but I hurt him and I'm feeling a lot of regret about that. And I acted badly when I met one of his conquests. Actually, I think I acted like a jealous boyfriend and that freaked me out a bit. So, Pete, if you're reading this, I know I've already apologized for that, but, dude, let me say again that I was out of line. Your sex life is your own and I have no claims to it anymore. Oh man, was that jerky to say? Like I ever had a claim to it? Eesh. I'm going to shut up now.

** Call Mom and make plans to do dinner the same day I do Pete. This is all part of my vow to see them both once a month. She misses me. I miss her. I need to see the brat AKA the baby bro. That kid is such a heartbreaker, but the best part is he doesn't know it. I think he thinks he's a geek, but if I were a sixteen year old girl, I would totally want to date him because he's smart, funny and totally a hottie. Okay, that came out way more creepy than I meant it to. I just want to spend some time with him and see how he's doing. I've gotten attached to the little guy.

** Make plans to meet up with Mia at some point. I told her we'd do something after the holidays and it's now officially after the holidays. I should ask Orlando if he wants to go, but I know Shy doesn't want to go anywhere right now and Orli would want to stay with him. Or they could both surprise me, but I'm thinking it's going to be just me and the little cutie. Ooh, that could be keeping my vow to be more social and do more stuff alone. Though, baby, you know I'm not doing it to exclude you from stuff, just to see if I can ever be my own guy. If you want to come, please come.

** Call Talia (GULP!) and see how she and the spawn baby are doing. I'm not sure how old the kid is...one? Three? When the hell did she have it? Anyway, I've decided that I'm going to reach out in a non-hostile way and try to start the healing process between us. Before everything went pear-shaped, she and I were friends. Yes, I married her because she lied about being pregnant, but if she had been and we'd had kids, maybe things would have been different. I did love her and I can't stand the fact that she hates me now and that I've hated her. Maybe I'm getting soft in my old age, but I don't want things to stay this way between us. Married at 19, divorced at 32. We basically raised each other. That has to count for something.

** Look at college courses. Lately I've had this academic itch that needs to be scratched and I think a few online courses could take care of that. It'll just be for the hell of it because I don't have a specific course of study I want to pursue. I just want to do something to get the old brain working and maybe learn a few things along the way.

That's it for my list. Not very long but full of useless information. I'm going to call Evie later today. I didn't call her for new year's because I knew she'd be busy with her L.A. shenanigans. The hangover should have worn off by now.
Tags: evie 09, mia 09, mom 09, musings 09, orlando 09, peter 09, shane 09, shy 09, talia 09
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